I've been curious on how things would go in the dating world and it was short lived. Perhaps it is for the best that it happened but it still sucks and doesn't help the self esteem at all. As much fun as there was in the short period, I need to take a step back and understand my priorities in my life and continue to stay on the mark and not short change myself.
What I mean by this is financially and long term goals. As much as I would love to believe that I am in a good spot, I continually evaluate myself to see where I stand. Not just in the credit market but also when I should make an advancement in stock trading, where do I put myself at at the railroad and how much does one really spend with friends.
I elected that I am going to get away some where decently far away to clear the mind, from August 20-22. I haven't placed a location yet but if it is greater than 300 miles away, I will be pleased with myself.
Some things I'll be thinking about:
Relationship and dating
Money and how to continue being frugal with it
What motorcycle really fits me, who I am, associated accessories.
Medium outlook items like credit and stock markets, looking at paying off the car and motorcycle about the same time.
Long term outlook items like house, baby stuff, and being serious about starting a business.
Taking a step back always is beneficial for everyone. Sometimes it makes some one understand to see what they may have lost out on or open their eyes that not everyone is selfless and self-centered. While things may not have worked out I am going to keep my head high, stay happy and proud of the decisions I have made and have led me to where I am at currently.
Now to test drive Craigslist =P
Goodnight
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
New Beginnings
New beginnings... where does some one start to get themselves on the path, the right and smart trek to starting over fresh, a new person, a new hope that they'll continue to see those sunsets and sunrises. What does it take to get over that unsurmountable hump, that pressure, that persistence of wanting something so badly that you can feel it on your tongue.
Simple... patience, persistence, stamina, and believing in yourself. I know first hand that without those 4 things, with or without friends, you will never come above water, you will allow yourself to drown in pity and self sorrow, guilt and doubting yourself along with others.
Where do we get help to really get ourselves straightened out? It all starts with one person and that is you.
Its been a while since I last wrote and for good reason. I wanted to see if I can stop myself, to see if I could survive without writing almost nightly. I am glad I can because blogging is damn near like a drug. I have finished the counseling and I haven't felt better. I've been happy where I am at, mentally and emotionally. Physically, I am still hesitant about it. My dental work and exercising will start to improve those segments. There are a lot of information about how to lose weight but there sure isn't much around for GAINING weight. While my beanpolisk stature of 150lbs on a 5'11 seems right (my BMI is about 20) but I'll be much more comfortable if I can be at 170lbs and be able to lift 200lbs (which is much better than anything I can do now)
Making personal commitments to yourself, for yourself, is frankly the most difficult thing to take control of. If you always go out and buy stuff, food, clothes, shoes, etc, that hump becomes even more difficult, especially if you only use plastic to make all of your purchases. To add in managing your personal training and wellness improvements makes things more acceptable because you are doing multiple things to take your mind off everything else going around you.
How have I done so far? Right now, I could honestly be doing better. Having to purchase another car due to the Nissan's transmission being impossible to find, has put some more pressure on me but that will soon be a large pile of money out of my life. I have $2000 in work I want to do to the Mazda that is non-critical and can be put together slowly. It sucks getting a used car but at least parts are readily available. I am still am putting money into savings and finally reached the cushion of that will cover a few months of rent if I were to loose my job. I also have zero balances on all my credit cards as another buffer with a secured card to act as an emergency card.
Physically, I have started to roller blade (inline skating dude...) and will be getting some dumbells to work out with. Starting off with a 8lb, 10, 15, 20 should set me good throughout the next year. I need to get my yearly physical soon and also have them look at my lower back to see if that can check out the crazy curve in my back. All the years of slouching has taken its toll on it and hopefully I can recover it for the most part by strengthening my back muscles. The basic situps and pushups are coming along slowly but surely, its getting back into the habit of doing them that is easier said than done.
My consumption of eating out has been cut in half. Every two weeks I was spending $200-300 just on fast food. Cooking even basic meals at home have saved me an incredible amount of money or if you want to see it as another picture, a car payment, or more that could go into savings.
I shouldn't leave out that I have met some one pretty damn awesome recently. We'll see how things go and take things slow and steady. Its amazing how things can just happen when patience wins out.
I'll start posting more regularly after this post. There may be another one tonight as well if I feel frisky enough.
Till next time...
Simple... patience, persistence, stamina, and believing in yourself. I know first hand that without those 4 things, with or without friends, you will never come above water, you will allow yourself to drown in pity and self sorrow, guilt and doubting yourself along with others.
Where do we get help to really get ourselves straightened out? It all starts with one person and that is you.
Its been a while since I last wrote and for good reason. I wanted to see if I can stop myself, to see if I could survive without writing almost nightly. I am glad I can because blogging is damn near like a drug. I have finished the counseling and I haven't felt better. I've been happy where I am at, mentally and emotionally. Physically, I am still hesitant about it. My dental work and exercising will start to improve those segments. There are a lot of information about how to lose weight but there sure isn't much around for GAINING weight. While my beanpolisk stature of 150lbs on a 5'11 seems right (my BMI is about 20) but I'll be much more comfortable if I can be at 170lbs and be able to lift 200lbs (which is much better than anything I can do now)
Making personal commitments to yourself, for yourself, is frankly the most difficult thing to take control of. If you always go out and buy stuff, food, clothes, shoes, etc, that hump becomes even more difficult, especially if you only use plastic to make all of your purchases. To add in managing your personal training and wellness improvements makes things more acceptable because you are doing multiple things to take your mind off everything else going around you.
How have I done so far? Right now, I could honestly be doing better. Having to purchase another car due to the Nissan's transmission being impossible to find, has put some more pressure on me but that will soon be a large pile of money out of my life. I have $2000 in work I want to do to the Mazda that is non-critical and can be put together slowly. It sucks getting a used car but at least parts are readily available. I am still am putting money into savings and finally reached the cushion of that will cover a few months of rent if I were to loose my job. I also have zero balances on all my credit cards as another buffer with a secured card to act as an emergency card.
Physically, I have started to roller blade (inline skating dude...) and will be getting some dumbells to work out with. Starting off with a 8lb, 10, 15, 20 should set me good throughout the next year. I need to get my yearly physical soon and also have them look at my lower back to see if that can check out the crazy curve in my back. All the years of slouching has taken its toll on it and hopefully I can recover it for the most part by strengthening my back muscles. The basic situps and pushups are coming along slowly but surely, its getting back into the habit of doing them that is easier said than done.
My consumption of eating out has been cut in half. Every two weeks I was spending $200-300 just on fast food. Cooking even basic meals at home have saved me an incredible amount of money or if you want to see it as another picture, a car payment, or more that could go into savings.
I shouldn't leave out that I have met some one pretty damn awesome recently. We'll see how things go and take things slow and steady. Its amazing how things can just happen when patience wins out.
I'll start posting more regularly after this post. There may be another one tonight as well if I feel frisky enough.
Till next time...
Monday, June 28, 2010
Rebuilding your credit - Part 1
I've come a long, long way from where I used to be. A FICO score of only 480, which is virtually rock bottom, makes getting anything that involves credit nearly impossible. So how do you recover from such a downward spiral?
As much as I would like to say it was easy, I am going on 5 years now of rebuilding myself, my history, and getting to the point where I can now get a high interest loan solo.
So where do you start with rebuilding your credit? The first and foremost thing to do is pull your credit report. I went the optional way via Equifax and later TransUnion for their 3-n-1 credit report. I prefer TransUnion now because while a little more expensive (9.99 vs 12.99 a month), you get your credit scores from all three reporting agencies, along with all of the bonus security features one may need.
Take your time to review all of the data, make sure everything is correct and up to date. DO NOT dispute items over 4 years old because it will actually hurt your score than help it. This is how I went from slightly above 600 to a 480 score. Once you have determined everything you have out or in collections, be proactive and make a budget to begin paying things off.
Do not be aggressive about your timeline and budget. Give yourself enough money to live on, have some play money, transit fare, or things you may need for your car.
Once you have your budget figured out, its time to setup automatic deductions from your account for savings. I started off with $50 a paycheck and now sitting at roughly $150 a paycheck that will go into savings. $300 a month may not sound much but at the end of a 12 month term, you will have $3600 bucks you can use or continue to save. If you use it, it will be a good stepping stone towards a down payment on a used car. Combine that with your tax return, you could be in a very good position for yourself and your recovery. For this example, you may be able to qualify for a house of your own in 4 to 8 years. In 4 years of not touching that $3600, you could have $14,400, excluding whatever has built up from interest on your money.
The above however WILL NOT get you credit. It is a method to maintaining a solid and secure budget that you can trust and rely upon.
To start building credit, we now need to look at credit cards. Unfortunately, you have to have some debt in order to gain credit. Its a terrible catch-22 but if you do it smartly and properly, you will not have any issues in your trek to rebuild your credit history.
For those that have a credit score under 620, getting a normal credit card with a small limit is very, very challenging. If you have been making your payments on-time, not a second late, you should have already noticed a slight bump in your history. To continue on the path of growth, take a look at Secured Credit Cards. I have two cards that have dramatically helped me in my progress to rebuilding my history. One card is from Applied Bank and the other is from Capital One. They both have a limit of $800 dollars, which will allow me to cover anything in an emergency. One stays on me at all times and the other is left at home for internet shopping.
This is where things may get a little difficult to understand. In order for you to gain credit now that you have your cards, you have to use them, upwards of 30 to 60 percent of their limit. The trick is to pay them off each month or get it below the 15% mark of you credit-to-debt ratio. Keeping this up for two to three years should have you near the 650-700 range. ALWAYS keep your cards open!!! If you close the cards, you close that chapter in your credit history, thus lowering and damaging your credit score.
After your 4th year of being responsible with your card, apply for a high end card. American Express or Discover will be your best option. While both aren't usable everywhere, they are a strong way to get you near that 800 FICO score.
There are many other things that affect your credit history. Your job history is a very small but important figure. If you have been on the job for only 3 months, you most likely will not get the loan, even if your job history was seamless. Also lenders won't give loans to those who move around a lot. It shows that you are a "flight risk" even if it is within the same median of where you live at. The longer you remain at your residence, the more likely you will get the loan. This is especially true if you are trying to get a recreational vehicle, like a boat, motorcycle, or ATV.
By alternating these methods and modifying them that best suits your needs will give you a strong correction of your credit history. That car, boat, motorcycle, or house isn't too far out when you set goals for yourself.
Keep your head up and keep fighting and you'll get what you want. You'll have to be patient but it'll eventually come to you. It took me nearly 5 years and I am now able to rent an apartment and get a car loan. There were plenty of blood, sweat and tears but the results show that when you want something bad enough, you'll continue to fight for it.
If you have any questions, feel free to contact me!
As much as I would like to say it was easy, I am going on 5 years now of rebuilding myself, my history, and getting to the point where I can now get a high interest loan solo.
So where do you start with rebuilding your credit? The first and foremost thing to do is pull your credit report. I went the optional way via Equifax and later TransUnion for their 3-n-1 credit report. I prefer TransUnion now because while a little more expensive (9.99 vs 12.99 a month), you get your credit scores from all three reporting agencies, along with all of the bonus security features one may need.
Take your time to review all of the data, make sure everything is correct and up to date. DO NOT dispute items over 4 years old because it will actually hurt your score than help it. This is how I went from slightly above 600 to a 480 score. Once you have determined everything you have out or in collections, be proactive and make a budget to begin paying things off.
Do not be aggressive about your timeline and budget. Give yourself enough money to live on, have some play money, transit fare, or things you may need for your car.
Once you have your budget figured out, its time to setup automatic deductions from your account for savings. I started off with $50 a paycheck and now sitting at roughly $150 a paycheck that will go into savings. $300 a month may not sound much but at the end of a 12 month term, you will have $3600 bucks you can use or continue to save. If you use it, it will be a good stepping stone towards a down payment on a used car. Combine that with your tax return, you could be in a very good position for yourself and your recovery. For this example, you may be able to qualify for a house of your own in 4 to 8 years. In 4 years of not touching that $3600, you could have $14,400, excluding whatever has built up from interest on your money.
The above however WILL NOT get you credit. It is a method to maintaining a solid and secure budget that you can trust and rely upon.
To start building credit, we now need to look at credit cards. Unfortunately, you have to have some debt in order to gain credit. Its a terrible catch-22 but if you do it smartly and properly, you will not have any issues in your trek to rebuild your credit history.
For those that have a credit score under 620, getting a normal credit card with a small limit is very, very challenging. If you have been making your payments on-time, not a second late, you should have already noticed a slight bump in your history. To continue on the path of growth, take a look at Secured Credit Cards. I have two cards that have dramatically helped me in my progress to rebuilding my history. One card is from Applied Bank and the other is from Capital One. They both have a limit of $800 dollars, which will allow me to cover anything in an emergency. One stays on me at all times and the other is left at home for internet shopping.
This is where things may get a little difficult to understand. In order for you to gain credit now that you have your cards, you have to use them, upwards of 30 to 60 percent of their limit. The trick is to pay them off each month or get it below the 15% mark of you credit-to-debt ratio. Keeping this up for two to three years should have you near the 650-700 range. ALWAYS keep your cards open!!! If you close the cards, you close that chapter in your credit history, thus lowering and damaging your credit score.
After your 4th year of being responsible with your card, apply for a high end card. American Express or Discover will be your best option. While both aren't usable everywhere, they are a strong way to get you near that 800 FICO score.
There are many other things that affect your credit history. Your job history is a very small but important figure. If you have been on the job for only 3 months, you most likely will not get the loan, even if your job history was seamless. Also lenders won't give loans to those who move around a lot. It shows that you are a "flight risk" even if it is within the same median of where you live at. The longer you remain at your residence, the more likely you will get the loan. This is especially true if you are trying to get a recreational vehicle, like a boat, motorcycle, or ATV.
By alternating these methods and modifying them that best suits your needs will give you a strong correction of your credit history. That car, boat, motorcycle, or house isn't too far out when you set goals for yourself.
Keep your head up and keep fighting and you'll get what you want. You'll have to be patient but it'll eventually come to you. It took me nearly 5 years and I am now able to rent an apartment and get a car loan. There were plenty of blood, sweat and tears but the results show that when you want something bad enough, you'll continue to fight for it.
If you have any questions, feel free to contact me!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Numb....
Tonight, I am numb. I tried to make something work that wasn't. I attempted to care, I tried to care, I slowly opened myself up, only to fail. I allowed myself to get hurt, knowing what could happen. I allowed myself to let my guard down, knowing the possibilities of the pain.
That pain is here and now I am numb. Shattered into nothing, I attempted to sway you, I wanted you to be mine and I let you go. It hurts so terribly but I brought it upon myself. It was no ones fault but my own. This blog has helped me reveal so much but it also backfired by revealing items of my past. As much as I wanted to tell you everything, it is not something I can endure online. It was something I wanted to be face to face, to see your reaction, to let you hear and see the pain in my face and emotions.
Now that I am numb, I must keep my heart closed. I will not allow this to happen again, even if it means being alone, even if that means closing people out once again. I attempted to be open minded, I tried to be vocal, I asked for more and all I accomplished is letting you slip from my fingers...
Yes, I have my problems. I have my personal issues. I am getting help for this and you knew this. I was nearly where I wanted, I thought I had everything I could've asked for and wanted to work on us next. I never got the time, I never got the opportunity, all I can do is say that I am sorry.
I am happy for you. I am happy that you have found some one. At least you have some one to make yourself happy. I wish I had a chance to be there more, perhaps we could've been happy together but now, I will be numb...closed...dark..and alone.
Goodnight...
That pain is here and now I am numb. Shattered into nothing, I attempted to sway you, I wanted you to be mine and I let you go. It hurts so terribly but I brought it upon myself. It was no ones fault but my own. This blog has helped me reveal so much but it also backfired by revealing items of my past. As much as I wanted to tell you everything, it is not something I can endure online. It was something I wanted to be face to face, to see your reaction, to let you hear and see the pain in my face and emotions.
Now that I am numb, I must keep my heart closed. I will not allow this to happen again, even if it means being alone, even if that means closing people out once again. I attempted to be open minded, I tried to be vocal, I asked for more and all I accomplished is letting you slip from my fingers...
Yes, I have my problems. I have my personal issues. I am getting help for this and you knew this. I was nearly where I wanted, I thought I had everything I could've asked for and wanted to work on us next. I never got the time, I never got the opportunity, all I can do is say that I am sorry.
I am happy for you. I am happy that you have found some one. At least you have some one to make yourself happy. I wish I had a chance to be there more, perhaps we could've been happy together but now, I will be numb...closed...dark..and alone.
Goodnight...
Ponderings...
I've pondered you for months,
I've been taken by your beauty,
I've wanted your desires,
I've tasted the want,
I've wanted to be lost in your mind,
I've long forgotten your lust,
I've pondered if you even remember me....
I've been taken by your beauty,
I've wanted your desires,
I've tasted the want,
I've wanted to be lost in your mind,
I've long forgotten your lust,
I've pondered if you even remember me....
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Relationships
Relationships; the root of frustration, chaos, triumph, and mystery. How they work, why they work, and how to make them work is how we spend the majority of our years figuring out. While we are in them, we are a mixed bag of emotions. When we are out of them, we still remain perplexed and at times lost.
Where does one start a relationship? Being social? Being talkative? Being hot and sexy? Why are there "qualifications" needed to be in a relationship and instead be with some one that is simply attractive and wants to cherish and spend time with the significant other?
Now, as I say that, I know attraction makes a large difference and is an unknown variable that goes from person to person. Most guys would want a Megan Fox but will settle for a Jennifer Love Hewitt.
Why are we drawn to a certain person? Is it a sexual attraction or a physical attraction? Does the desire to want some one overpower the overall reason why we are here; to have children and continue life and the legacy of our existence?
Sometimes a relationship can be strictly raw, sexual, animalistic desire to have at it with each other. Others can be slow, romantic, passionate, and compassionate. Do we settle for one or another? Do we strive to want one or another or is there some one out there that is equally balanced? Will some one equal stray away and see the person you care for in the midst of a gangbang or will they be loyal to you. How can you trust some one you barely know besides hoping they are being honest and faithful?
Yes, I am looking far too deep in the overall picture of something that seems so simple but the many gist of this post is trying to understand why some relationships are so wonderful and others are so damned difficult to understand.
I wish I knew a direct, easy answer to these questions. In many ways these questions only serve to confuse me more yet I yearn to find some sort of resolution to these questions.
Perhaps whomever is "out there" for me will answer these questions for me some day. Maybe that person will surprise me or simply hurt me once again. Hopefully whatever comes around, I will be prepared for it regardless of whatever happens tomorrow or 50 years from now.
Where does one start a relationship? Being social? Being talkative? Being hot and sexy? Why are there "qualifications" needed to be in a relationship and instead be with some one that is simply attractive and wants to cherish and spend time with the significant other?
Now, as I say that, I know attraction makes a large difference and is an unknown variable that goes from person to person. Most guys would want a Megan Fox but will settle for a Jennifer Love Hewitt.
Why are we drawn to a certain person? Is it a sexual attraction or a physical attraction? Does the desire to want some one overpower the overall reason why we are here; to have children and continue life and the legacy of our existence?
Sometimes a relationship can be strictly raw, sexual, animalistic desire to have at it with each other. Others can be slow, romantic, passionate, and compassionate. Do we settle for one or another? Do we strive to want one or another or is there some one out there that is equally balanced? Will some one equal stray away and see the person you care for in the midst of a gangbang or will they be loyal to you. How can you trust some one you barely know besides hoping they are being honest and faithful?
Yes, I am looking far too deep in the overall picture of something that seems so simple but the many gist of this post is trying to understand why some relationships are so wonderful and others are so damned difficult to understand.
I wish I knew a direct, easy answer to these questions. In many ways these questions only serve to confuse me more yet I yearn to find some sort of resolution to these questions.
Perhaps whomever is "out there" for me will answer these questions for me some day. Maybe that person will surprise me or simply hurt me once again. Hopefully whatever comes around, I will be prepared for it regardless of whatever happens tomorrow or 50 years from now.
That fine line...
Where do we stop and make a decision on where the fine line is at? The line that we no longer can handle the situation and need to make a dramatic change in our life's that is for the better. We as humans come across this line in many scenarios, like drug and alcohol abuse or relationships with boyfriend/girlfriends or wives and husbands.
When do we get to the point that we abandon all hope, give up and wish to be 6 feet under instead of continuing to fight that never ending battle of pain, guilt, doubt and mystery? We give up on many things in life once we make a decision to do the change. Some of these lines we cross divide us greatly, politically and mentally. Some of these lines cause us to be much more dramatic, like jumping off a bridge, putting a gun to ones head, or stepping out in front of a train.
What breaks that line up? How can we get away from that line, where hope exists over the border of reach that has always seemed impossible?
I've been thinking about a lot of the above. I've contemplated almost everything to make the pain end, the agony of that this world seems to bring me and ultimately my friends as I rant, complain, and bitch about the issue. The stress, the drama, the lies that people tell me, the hatred towards me some give me, always that fine line that wants to be crossed to make it all disappear seems all to easy, the quickest way.
But for a change, to hell with everyone that has doubted my resolve. Those "friends" whom told me to go ahead and kill myself because I have no meaning, no purpose on this planet. Fuck you to the prior employers that said I will never amount to anything and I will be a failure because I only have my GED and not college educated.
Yes, my life isn't that grand with a fucking cherry to mark the chip on my shoulder. Yes, I've stole, done terrible things, gotten into fights, been in juvi for not going to school. My life has been a wreck and my home life is mostly to blame for my pit falls but I'll be damned if I let some of you tell me I will be NOTHING because it makes you feel some what better about your higher-than-thou life, get off your uppity pedestal, you are only hurting yourself.
I have been spending the past 5 years, cleaning up my act, improving my credit history, making myself a better person, a better man, to make myself who I, ME, what I want to be, not what YOU want me to be. I WILL get me a motorcycle and enjoy my passion. I WILL get my engineers license, I WILL be strong, and I WILL remain focused on my goals.
Doubt me and my goals, regardless if they take another 2-5 years to become a reality but in every fibre of my being will continue to fight what I want to be, who I want to be, and what I want to accomplish. My decision does not need your permission, it does not need your money, it does not need your two cents unless I ask of it and I sure in the hell don't need you to believe you know what is best for me in my life or career decisions.
If you cannot understand that, remove me from whatever social network you have me on, remove me from your phone, we have no reason to speak to each other.
To those that have helped me remain strong, given me the sound advice and knowledge that I have asked for, I can not express how thankful I am. I would not be here still if it wasn't for some of you. There were many, many times when the fine line snapped and I went into the deep end and almost never came back.
When do we get to the point that we abandon all hope, give up and wish to be 6 feet under instead of continuing to fight that never ending battle of pain, guilt, doubt and mystery? We give up on many things in life once we make a decision to do the change. Some of these lines we cross divide us greatly, politically and mentally. Some of these lines cause us to be much more dramatic, like jumping off a bridge, putting a gun to ones head, or stepping out in front of a train.
What breaks that line up? How can we get away from that line, where hope exists over the border of reach that has always seemed impossible?
I've been thinking about a lot of the above. I've contemplated almost everything to make the pain end, the agony of that this world seems to bring me and ultimately my friends as I rant, complain, and bitch about the issue. The stress, the drama, the lies that people tell me, the hatred towards me some give me, always that fine line that wants to be crossed to make it all disappear seems all to easy, the quickest way.
But for a change, to hell with everyone that has doubted my resolve. Those "friends" whom told me to go ahead and kill myself because I have no meaning, no purpose on this planet. Fuck you to the prior employers that said I will never amount to anything and I will be a failure because I only have my GED and not college educated.
Yes, my life isn't that grand with a fucking cherry to mark the chip on my shoulder. Yes, I've stole, done terrible things, gotten into fights, been in juvi for not going to school. My life has been a wreck and my home life is mostly to blame for my pit falls but I'll be damned if I let some of you tell me I will be NOTHING because it makes you feel some what better about your higher-than-thou life, get off your uppity pedestal, you are only hurting yourself.
I have been spending the past 5 years, cleaning up my act, improving my credit history, making myself a better person, a better man, to make myself who I, ME, what I want to be, not what YOU want me to be. I WILL get me a motorcycle and enjoy my passion. I WILL get my engineers license, I WILL be strong, and I WILL remain focused on my goals.
Doubt me and my goals, regardless if they take another 2-5 years to become a reality but in every fibre of my being will continue to fight what I want to be, who I want to be, and what I want to accomplish. My decision does not need your permission, it does not need your money, it does not need your two cents unless I ask of it and I sure in the hell don't need you to believe you know what is best for me in my life or career decisions.
If you cannot understand that, remove me from whatever social network you have me on, remove me from your phone, we have no reason to speak to each other.
To those that have helped me remain strong, given me the sound advice and knowledge that I have asked for, I can not express how thankful I am. I would not be here still if it wasn't for some of you. There were many, many times when the fine line snapped and I went into the deep end and almost never came back.
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